CEEAS | 2017 Words Unlocked Winner: Letting Go
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2017 Words Unlocked Winner: Letting Go

Title: Letting Go

Facility: Delmina Woods Youth Facility, Missouri
Teaching Artist: Jen Hunt
Poet: Macyn

POEM TITLE: LETTING GO

Letting Go

 

Beating, but no words coming out,

 

 Only feeling his hands pounding, like my heart.

 

 Feeling lifeless, feeling loved.

 

 His hands cracking against my skin,

 

Like a ball against a bat.

 

 Beaten by the world,

 

 Beaten by MY world.

 

 Tears pouring like rain,

 

 Hitting the floor as hard as he hits me.

 

 Lying like a snake baking in the sun,

 

 He is pounding like a drum.

 

 Screaming in the night,

 

 Crying like the caged bird,

 

 All I needed was help.

 

 No matter how loud I wailed,

 

 Nobody came.

 

 Girl after girl, hit after hit,

 

 I was still worthless.

 

 Wanting nothing but a hug,

 

 But only getting hands around my throat.

 

 Feeling lost, feeling dead, feeling empty.

 

Staying because I love you,

 

 Or staying because no one else will.

 

 Black and blue became my only colors,

 

 I was a color wheel,

 

 Without a theory.

 

 Three years later,

 

 My mind is still like a caged bird,

 

 But I am a free bird.

 

 I’m learning to let go,

 

 Like a bird learning to fly for the first time.